He lovess!! Happy Wednesday!! How are you all doing it’s been a while hasn’t it as most of you know about my whole internet issue, still working on it though and trying my best to put out content for you all but when it comes to the videos still not sure when but i will be trying to pre record ok enough ranting now on to the post
Can I be honest with you all can i get a little personal today!! For years I have struggled with with a low self esteem and thinking bad of myself. I have been called names like fish bone because I am so petite, One kidney but at the same time i have herd that i am a beautiful girl!! I have had mixed feelings for years about myself but as time went on I gained a little confidence. There were times when i would look at myself in the mirror in disgust and say why couldn’t i have more weight. I have a birthmark that i got from my dad oh i can’t believe i’m writing this where the back of my legs are darker than the front and at some places its like you can see a outline of the different shades because my mom is of lighter complexion than my dad so i’m mixed with multiple colors. I have cloaked myself because i am embarrassed about it for years never wearing shorts or wanting to show my legs, I have found excuses on top of excuses not to go to the beach sometimes.
The people closest to be always try to make me feel so much better about myself but i still wasn’t convinced i was the beautiful girl they exaggerated me to be!! yes I have a beautiful face but i hate my body and they would always curse me for that. I eventually got over my surgery scar from a younger age because to me I said that shows me that I am a survivor people would sometimes ask me what’s that scar for when i went to the beach I would just tell them it’s my surgery scar some would keep questioning which sometimes made me uncomfortable because i don’t always like talking about my story
As years went on and i became an adult and I developed acne and started having a skin condition you call tinea versicolor I realized i should have appreciated myself and loved myself more. I started gaining more confidence in myself and loving myself despite my flaws especially since I started blogging, I have gained so much more confidence than in previous years, I have learnt that no one is perfect and that you can’t look on others and wish you had their body, you are flawless in your own way so love the queen you are no matter if you have multicolored skin or many scars on your body.
What i realize now a days is people are wishing to have a body like these celebrities and instagram perfect bodies but guess what that’s just a picture it can be edited and made to look perfect so don’t wish to have a body like an instagram model, work on yourself and exercise for you not for anyone else.
I have gained so much more confidence in myself over the years and If i have you can too. Love yourself appreciate your flaws and embrace them!!! Take it one step at a time, I am determined to do a shoot on the beach in my kimono and shorts and I am gonna keep loving myself each day more and more so i can have the courage to do that shoot so do something each day that will help you to love yourself more whether its, scrubbing your body, exercising, making a skincare routine to boost your confidence do it!!!! and never let anyone tell you that you aren’t beautiful or disrespect your body, because you are beautifully and wonderfully made and you are loved!!
Have an amazing day loves!!!